Mixed emotions

I just got a call from DCS, requesting information about the boy.  He's been gone for over a year and I still know more about him than they do.  It's so frustrating that DCS doesn't have all his information in some file for him to see when he turns 18, but at the same time, it helps me feel connected to him. Not a day goes by that I don't miss him and wonder how he's doing, and it's actually kind of nice to get these little tid bits.  I really hope that some day, when he's older and wants to know about his childhood, he'll look me up and I'll be able to share all my wonderful memories.  I really am lucky to have been a part of his journey.